Cleaning the Polite Hatchback on the drive this morning and mulling over the recent events it seems incredible already that only two days ago I was unemployed, quietly hemorrhaging savings, and desperately seeking work. Already it seems a lifetime ago and I’ve not even begun the new position yet!
But just that lift of uncertainty, the cessation of financial concerns (I touched eighty along a dual carriageway on the way home from Blonde Towers last night. Fuel consumption? Didn’t even check), the feeling of general well-being, that all is right with the world once more, I’m in a different place.
I’m not ploughing the job sites this morning, not plotting the next follow up strategy, not hunting down any glimmer of opportunity. Suddenly in my mind I’m not unemployed, I’m merely on holiday. Wonderful. The sun is shining, and not just literally.
The spectre of the job centre no longer hangs heavy either. God, I came to loath that place and all it stood for. Just a bureaucratic mess of inefficiency and inertia, a pen pushing paper shuffling form filling data entering waste of time, effort and money. I shan’t miss getting soaked in the rain just to fulfil my side of the bureaucratic bargain. I shan’t miss the Argos jewellery, tattoos and whiff of last nights cheap lager. And I shan’t miss my fellow claimants either. I can honestly say that the government efforts to “assist” me back into employment (which, after all, is their raison d’etre) amounted to a big fat zero. Utterly hopeless.
As to this blog? Started on a whim and a wish, I’ve been genuinely overwhelmed by so much warmth and generosity from those that are, lets face it, total strangers. It gives me real heart that people clearly care so much, so thank you all. And, as The Blonde wisely pointed out last night, it’s been cathartic too. Writing about the agony of getting so close yet so far, sharing my wretched frustration at the job centre, it’s got it out and put it behind me each time. A good thing.
So where to from here? Well the original intent was to document my journey from redundancy to employment, share the ride. Yet as that journey ends, another one begins. So, buoyed up by so many kind calls for continuation, I’ll keep it updated perhaps once a week or so.
Lets see where the next big adventure takes us.
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